the last day 2009...

time pass fast... its time to say goodbye to 2009...and welcome 2010...

but something still heaven settle it clearly..
its make me very confuse...
i am did something hurt for M and my self...
i dont know what to say also....
hope that 2010 will bring a lot happy day for me...
wishes everyone have a nice day...

back !

hmm... long time i never back to my blog..nearly forget tim...
well i am so free now, cause i am in holiday !
somemore i back to my hometown kelantan ... i got a lot time to post blog and internet...
so fast its december now... few more week its NEW YEAR jor... wah...time pass fast ...
nothing special happen to me... the most special is only ...i am not SINGLE anymore... haha
sweet ler... well..i have nothing to share now... see this few days la.. got any thing to share or not ! hehe..bye...

recently me !

Dont know why...that day i plan to stop my blog cause i have nothing problem for my life
but ..hmm...why i am here again ?
may be i am too much thinking in my mind !
something happen to me between with my best friends
haiz..i not really good recently !
it was an unlucky month !
the only lucky for me is ... i got my salary finally ! (haha)
i am now sitting at coffee island and blogging !
i am looking everyone and everything around me...
the sound..the chit chat sound...the peoples walking...working ...
and sit beside me de friends.. pps-ing ..and facebook-ing !
i dont know what to share also !...ok la..talk about my homeworks la !


art history - i had done my postcard in 2 days ago !
packaging design - i had done for the research book ! collect the sample of packaging design
drawing - my character is out ! now doing the thumbnails for cover...
visual comm- i am bad skills in illustrators.. but i trying to learn asap ..
photography- i got my model le...and week 5 is my turn to capture it !...(will post out a nice photo soon )

and..lastly, i will start busy on this week...cause ..moving my stuff to another house !
i hope that after move ...i will got a happy life again !...
no more emo for me !

我的超人...

在每个人的心中..一定会有一个超人的..而我超人就是我的"老豆"
我很爱他..非常的爱他..
以前..爸爸的脾气很坏...动不动就骂人..还动手打我们...
可是..现在的他..是绝种的好爸爸...
每当我遇到不好的事情他总会出现在我脑海里...
就象最近我真的很不开心...
爸爸好象知道我在哭这样..
才开始要哭..电话就响起了..
听着爸爸很酷的关心我...还满开心..幸福的....
爸爸老了...我们也长大了..我们会想了...
也知道他是很辛苦的把我们养大..
还给我们一个很温暖的家庭...
我真的很想做一件事...
那就是..很大力的抱着爸爸...
告诉他..我很爱他...
我要做我爸爸永远的女儿..
下辈子就让我们来照顾你...
我一定会好好报答你的...老豆
nothing gonna change my love for you !

很想大哭一场...

心情不好..朋友开玩笑..我不开心...
这样就失去了朋友...
现在的我...简直就是一个人在做事...没人了解这种心情...
每晚象自己找节目...去外面一个做功课到凌晨...早上就上课...
这样的日子很难过...身边的人慢慢的消失了...我哭了...我真的哭了...突然只想要见一个人..那就是我爸爸...每当我哭时我也只会想他...因为他就是保护我的...


啊.......

a new song for my blog ( NO MORE YOU )

Konvict (Konvict)
Ohhh, ohh, ohh, ohh

Just one look in the mirror
And I know I don't look the same being alone
I don't walk the same without you on my arm, I lost my charm
I don't know how I made it before
Cuz you are my future for sure
And now that it's over I dont know how I'm gonna get by

Chorus:
With no more you x2
What am I gonna do?
with no more you
To see me through,
with no more you
What am I gonna do?
with no more you
Can't believe there's no more you

I look at my passenger side
And there's nobody to ride with me for life
It feels like the end, I lost my friend
I can't sleep at night,
Because your side ain't occupied
The hurt in my eyes, won't go away
I'm in so much pain

Chorus:
With no more you x2
What am I gonna do?
there's no more you
To see me through,
with no more you
What am I gonna do?
there's no more you
Can't believe there's no more you

Don't know if I can make it or not
Everybody sees that I'm going through a lot
It's hard being alone,
When you used to be on top
Call for you, there's no more you
I stop for a minute then I pinch myself
I can't believe I'm here by myself
I can't do anything without your help.
Call for you, there's no more you..Ohhh

Chorus: (x2)
With no more you
What am I gonna do?
there's no more you
To see me through,
with no more you
What am I gonna do?
there's no more you
Can't believe there's no more you

No more you
What am I gonna do,
there's no more you
To see me through,
No more you..
What am I gonna do,
there's no more you
Can't believe there's no more you (x3)

正式宣布...

i would stop blogging ! ...
no reason why i wanna to stop it ... and this will be a death blog soon...
bye bye my blog ! ( heart you so much ) thanks for accompany me when i am down..happy...emo... i will miss you !muacks (to my blog )

my days...

everything come back to me again! ...stress...
stress for ? study ...
hrm...i am in diploma now ..
and i got a OK results for my cert.(must do well start now )
hmm...
today, photography class..
1st. homework ...
character portrait..
and..i am looking for a good model....
hmm..and this the last photography class for us le...
must do with a HEART ...

but how sad...
i am sick now...i must take a good care of my self as well...
do not sick in this time...

about THAT love pulak ...
haiz...sien la... apa pun tak mahu la...
tutup mata liao la...
hahaha....
belajar dulu ...

i make it okay...i MISS you

When You're Gone

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now


When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

说不出的心声...

天黑了..
你也应该走了..
我想..你离开我的原因是..
突然下雨了...
雨的出现..让我失去温暖...
可是还好..
雨后的天空..很美丽..
也看见了彩虹...
又可是...只是一瞬间...
又消失了...

天啊..怎么了?
到底我在想什么?
这样的日子..很难过...
谁来明白我?
又为什那么多的出现?

oh no...my holidays..

times pass so fast...one week gone dy...
in this one week i eat a lot because of my lovely mum la...
always cook my favorite food... haiz...
whatever la...i still need to eat one more week...hiak hiak hiak..
dont bother its gonna be fat...eat st la...(belakang kira )
what i did in my holiday...

- sleep
-eat
-watch movie(pps)
-shopping(kb)
-high tea(old king)
stay at house doing nothing...

its totally enjoy my holiday ! ..

STOP here la...will updated a nice blog soon !

recently me....

hmm... recently .. my life...very stable...normal...nothing special..
i am in my hometown now...feel fresh...i got my parent love...my brother bully...
my hometown friends accompany ... the others...really no point to think so much liao la..
haha...feel bored actually...but ok la...stay at house..relax..
and prepare for next sem...
sem 4 lu..go in to diploma le...
must add oil liao..
no more play play liao...

feel lazy to blog-ing again...haha...
find a day got mood just blog-ing again la...
hehe...bye bye ...

一路好走....

昨天...妈妈跟我通电话...说..我们家的一位工人...撞车...昏迷不醒...
那时候我家人也很紧张了..因为他们也刚从KL回来不久...
那位工人..也是我哥的好朋友..
我爸妈非常疼他...也当他是儿子了...
他人很好的...

今早..爸打给我...要我小心开车...然后..
爸告诉我...他走了...
听到爸的声音..爸很难过...爸说...
妈和二哥现在在KL看他...
我打给妈...
我:妈..你在那里?
妈:(哭着说)阿正没有了.....
我:妈...不要哭了....(我不知道该怎么安慰妈...)
妈:没说话....只是哭..........很久.....
我:妈...有什么事打给我...不要哭了...好不好....
妈:..哦!...


这一场悲剧真叫人心酸...

阿正:
安息吧!...
祝福你.......

assigment week its coming !

hmm...week7 now...we are now doing homework everyday ...
next monday ..holiday again !..how sad i need to works..
but must finish my homework on time also de...
after assigment week then...HOLIDAY lu...
gonna back to hometown and see my dad and mama..and my er ge ...
i miss them alot...they sayang me de....i love them so much !

homework left :
3d = 45%done..
drawing=50%done...
interior=10%done...

i can do it !! !

a wonderful night..

a night...with classmates...

i am the most short ! happy hor !

今天心情很好....

今天心情好好哦...一大早就起床了...
好像会有什么好事会发生这样...(也好啦)
早上...他就打电话向我报告了...
哈哈哈...好像越来越在乎我了...(也好啦)
这样才会幸福嘛!...
现在..我在上课...可是...不知道要做什么...
该做的都做了...只好傻傻坐在这里写部落...
最近的我...真的很好...非常好...好到...无法形容....
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈....
虽然没有在一起...可是..每天都还在关心对方的我们....
还是每天吃同样的醋...哈哈哈...很想告诉你...
我很想你...

你教我啦...

我开始要忘记你时,你总是让我想起你...
昨晚我们又通电话了...我又动心了...
亲爱的...你要我怎样?
你问我...我们是什么关系...
我答...朋友...(因为是你先说要我做你的朋友)
你又跟我说.....我要你暂时做你的朋友...(这是什么吗?)
23号又叫我陪你去玩....还说有话要跟我说..什么话要去到那边才可以说的?
我很担心...担心我自己又在被你欺负...你一时一样的...又说这样..又说那样...
哎哟...我要怎样啦...昨天我跟你说我跟朋友去玩...你又吃醋...是不是还关心我啊?
可是我答应自己了嘛...我不要钓鱼...只然有没有人要钓我...我也没办法啊...我还爱你的...我愿意等你...可是...我不要做第三者...你说你没有女友...我不信..因为你已经骗过我了...
所以..这也不能怪我...哈哈哈...谁叫你欺负我.?
现在...我们这样不是很好吗?
你每天吃醋...我每天都很开心...吃多点吧!...
这就是我为你准备的甜品咯...很好吃是不是...
哈哈哈....
现在的我...还是一样没有改变...一样的心...一样的等待...(感动叻)
哼...可是我还是要你等我...谁叫你要我等你....哈哈哈...一起等啦...
是时候了...我们就能在一起了...看谁先变心...

一个又爱又恨的人...

我很模糊...我不知道该怎样...
都说好了...不要在找对方...怎么..又打给我?
还告诉我...那封信息..是要我死心...好我相信你...
为什么我打给你的时候..是一个女生听的...
此刻的心情..没人了解...
为什么要一直骗我...
我有那么好骗吗?
本来..还打算跟你做朋友就好了...
现在你让我更恨你..
恨到不想在看到你.....
就算今世没人爱我...我也不会爱你了....
白痴的不是我...是你...

一段感情...换回来..到最后是知识...

我相信应该有人很想知道我最近怎么了...

我遇见了一个人...
不久后..我们就在一起了...
在一起的日子..虽然很短..可是我很高心....
为什么..现在的我又单身的...问题出来了...
我认识他的时候...他跟我说他也是单身...那我也放心..因为就不想让他女有吃醋..
时间真的很快...一个星期有过去了...
他说..可能不读书了..要帮爸爸做工...要离开我...又叫我等他..
好咯..爱就是那么伟大的..等就等...没什么的...
晚上他就回去了...
各一天早上...突然我的电话响了..
是他的信息...

:宝贝...你醒了吗?
我:为什么突然又叫我宝贝?不是说好先做朋友的吗?到底是怎样啦..?
:你还记得我们怎样认识的吗?
我:记得..
:你还记得我们几时在一起的吗?
我:当然记得...
:可以发你照片给我吗?
我:为什么突然要我的照片?你都有了...
:我要看..可是你发去另一号码...012**&&^%
(我不知道是谁的号码)

我有觉得很奇怪了..我不发..
三小时后...我发信息给他...

我:你是不是在玩我...
:其实我有女有了...
我:我都猜到了...请你以后不要在早我...因为我不想有这样的人做我的朋友..
:哦 !



请问..这样的男人是不是没有脑?
自己都有女友了..还要这样玩无辜的人...
朋友们..别担心我..我没事...
我不会因为这样的人而伤心难过...
反而我很开心...因为我看出了他....

my simple life ?

hmm...i just start in love in last week...
but how sad... i am single now (again )
i should happy or sad ?
i should couple or single ?
what should i do ?
i need love ...
but its come hurt....
i need care...
but its give me a pain...
i am totally blank now...
i dont know what to do again...
i already try the best and best for you ...
but finally...its nothing for me...
you love me...
but you ask me to wait...
i want to know...
how long i need to wait for ? 1 month ? 1 year ? next generation ?
its again and again happen to me...
i try to choose other love...
but its come the same....



BLANK

unlucky day

sorry for never updated my blog this few days !
haiz...its alot bad thing happen to me !...
hmm....friday...i went to works ! at parit buntar !..
as a fair camera promoter...( how tired i am )
and....actually i already got a bf le...
so that...friday night after work i gonna go meet him ...
i drive to fetch him for our dinner....
cause his car send to shop for repair it !..
unlucky thing happen to me ! ...that is !
my 1st time accident !
holly shit ! ! ! ! !
so sakit hati YOU KNOW ...
i never do that before...
actually is...because of my phone..
i am not concentrate when driving !
cause my phone was ringing that time...
and i try to take out from my pocket ...
2 second before....when i see there is nothing...
suddenly ! BOOM....walao....i bang the car front of me ....(kenali )
HOLLY SHIT again...
haiz....then stop beside the road and see how my car and the ppl car...
not much happen...just the car plate broke...
while...i already no mood at all.....

STORY ENDING ! ...
thank you !

the feel..

hmm..yesterday...monday !
morning got drawing class..how sad...our lecturer mc..
but the class still on la..
we continue our works...gonna pass up on next week...
and feel a bit boring while doing ...suddenly got a mood to taking picture...

the picture a bit low quality...cause just using a phone camera...

but its still nice...hehe

thanks oh !

haha...someone start blogging dy !
he said because of my blog !
so that he wanna to start to share the happy and sadness also...

thanks wor...mr.ah LIANG...

its come back to me ...

yea..everything is come back to me...i hope that it happy for me la...hehe..

Lonely are the nights
Lonely are the days
Lonely am I, in so many ways

Lonely are the seasons
Lonely are the years
So lonely am I, that it brings tears.

Lonely is this place
Lonely is my life
Lonely am I, that I reach for a knife

Lonely is this court room
Lonely is my sentence
So lonely am I that I ask for repentance.

turn back to single...hehehe..:-)

yea..i change my blog title and add..

hmm...how should i start !..
eem..life is simple....and i make it colorful ..
yea..think is easy ... but not hard to make it also !..
just think positive and do positive...everything will be colorful and nice...
i dont know whether my life is simple or not...for me...
i think so la...
i got a papa and mama that very love me ..
and got two brother that always like to bully but it meaning a lot...cause...one day they didnt bully ..i am not their sister...so that why they always bully me...but for me...bully mean SAYANG of cause..hehe..hmm.. last week i am so emo and solo...i dont know what i should do also...but now..haha..i am happy ! cause..i got a normal life...doing the same thing everyday ! its quite simple la....haiz..i hope my next up blog should be happy de lol...hahaha...but anyway,

i got a color smile now !

我错了...

一开始我们就不应该在一起了...
我们对彼此的了解还不够深...
我错了...是我的错..我不会怪谁....
我们需要时间去了解大家...
也许你觉得我还年轻...思想幼稚...
我不怪你...开心就好...
我还是会过我的生活...
我会开心的...不要担心我...我没事的...
我们还是可以从朋友开始过的...
我不知道我们会不会有以后...
我也不渴望什么..
希望..
你每天还会关心我....
就算我不是你的宝贝...
朋友的关心也好....


我会等你来爱我的...

my baby...(sweat story )haha

hmm my baby was get hurt ! ! !
and now he is a patients..at icu room now...
doctor said wednesday just can bring him back to me..
so pity when see him go by ambulance car..

this week its hard for me..
cause..no baby beside me...
anyway...i am always waiting for my baby...
i love my baby...

baby is mine !

to baby :
mama here waiting you ...
must take care oh ...
wednesday mama bring you go drink KEAT HUA BENG ...
baby dont naughty when doctors see you hor...
must eat medicine oh !...
mama love you !muacks..

a night

12/8/09

its my 1st time watch movie with him...but still got two people going la...
me..marcus...yuki ..and jimmy !its damn boring for the movie...i really dont understand what the story ! anyway...i am enjoy its...cause...hahaha...

13/8/09
now..
i am in coffee island
with yuki..and fiona..
and..my brain and heart keep thinking blank !
i dont know what should i do ...
but i still can smile and talk ...
what i hope ? is it that ?
i got a bit scare to wait the answer...
but..whatever la...how the answer also i need to face...
if okay then happy lol...if ko ..then i continue my life also la..
hehe..i am genie ying ma...nothing problem geh !
i must be strong...
wont because of some thing and i lost my self...
i know there was a lot people love me and sayang me de...
i know..

haha...feel want to cry !..but cant ..
too many people here...
pai seh lol!...

sorry !

nearly, two week i forgot about my blog ! sorry baby(blog) ! hehe...
yesterday was my day...but i never get any picture yet !
so that i cant post out !..hmm...gonna post soon la...
to someone :

08101230-08171230
this is our date to know each other more deeper...
i hope that i got a nice and happy answer that day !

i am looking for part-time jobs..
and i am now change a lot !
but my smile..never change !
slowly and feel it ...
i am changing now !
lalala...

here some pic when i not really in mood !
and i got the look !haha..




yuki kissing the smart 1 ..


the smart 1.

me and yuki

公主的日子

公主的日子真好过...
我希望每天都可以这样过...

早上一起床就有东西吃了..
吃了..就去理发店....
弄好了..回来又有东西吃...

哇..好爽啊...
什么都不用做...

我的老豆..
担心这个担心那个...

我的老妈...
煮这个煮那个...

我的二哥..
在和我玩我们小时候玩的东西...
就是...我在冲凉的时候...他在厕所敲墙壁...
我也一直敲...然后看谁被吓...(很幼稚)可是很好玩....

晚上又和猪朋狗友一起出去喝喝茶谈谈天....
一天又一天...
我又变成我了...肥肥胖胖的公主.....

holiday lul...

lalala....just got time to blog-ing..hehehe...
last week...i was busy for my assigment....rushing rushing and rushing...
finally finish ! feel relax...

i am in hometown now...
stay with my family again...
feel warm...
i like my mum cooked...
i like my dad care me...
i like my brother bully ...
and i like to bully his gf too...
hahaha...

feel so warm,..
everything back to me.....
near everyday my mum cook my favorite food...
near everyday my dad ask how about my life in peneng...
they are so love me...
hahaha

busy ...

hrm...
few day le i didnt update my blog...
got a lot pic ...but lazy to show it haha...
somemore...assigment week coming...
rushing my works...
so many work to do...
gonna crazy la...
its a lot thing happen in this few also...
haiz...

to someone...
: rest in peace...
got a new life there...

to my kelantan buudy...
:so happy finally come to peneng find me and hang out together...

to my family
i so miss you all...
i want go back to meet you all ..
two more week ...

to the ppl bang my car...
YOU ARE BITCH ...
sonata...P.. 7007...silver color...

to my lecturer...
i want high marks....(hehehe)

lalala...
that all la...

emo-ing

suddenly..i flash back me and MR.g...
i miss him alot...but...we are friends now...
and..yesterday ah sir ask me....
you break up with him liao ..
i said ya...i am...
sir ask...why ?
i said dont know ....may be of some part we not NGAM ....

hahaha....
now i am alone...and single...
but...i hope that i was single lng time ago !
but...why suddenly i feel i am so lonely ....
sweat la...what i want !?
so confuse now....
all my friend always come out with their partner...but me ?!
just classmate....friends ...

i feel i am so sorry to him...
i treat him badly...
and he treat me so good and nice ...
but what i get ...and some of my friend...
always say me bully him...
but NO ONE understand me...
why i leave him...
izzit i really want ?
to my friends....
please la..
dont always say that he is slim now...look so cham...
so pity him....he look so boring ! what else...
hello....me ler ...when i cry ...when i sad...when i lonely...
who gonna say i am pity ?
who gonna care me....?


hahaha.....extra point !...
i am happy now...

buddy birthday..PART 2...

PART 2....
after we finish our dinner...we plan to take a walk...
and someone..decide eh..aboh we take photo la..hehehe..
okay okay okay...here the photo..
quite normal...
and not to be childish thing....control ma..
AND
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...
YI FEI...
hope you got a happy moment on it....

the black one...

meme..

what i'm doing there ?

the black one...without any PAKAT...

the kacau one....

the black and white days..without any PAKAT too...

start doing stupid thing liao...

i still control my self...

a group photo...

sui sui eh...




after this...someone said...jom..go toilet...want shuew shuew...ok...

in the toilet..my godness...may be there was no ppl...and i lost my control liao...

see ...what i done ?

when i look to the mirrow..

haha...i dont know what there doing...accidentally capture it...sorry

all girls there....we are YOUNG ladies..

we closer to each other...

we are always together ..cause best friends ma...see...we are blackie...

the way to our happy place..

TOY R US...see...

i though he wont play the childish thing...he failed...he play also...

she acting the michael jackson pose ...

they thought they are too young...

i play mine..hula hula...

hahaha....i no comment for it...

she feel hungry after went to toilet...

what going on ? notice to her face...kinda funny !

he never play this thing when he was a kid...so now.....play POH XIU...

buddy birthday....PART 1...

okay...i gonna start the story.. 25.6.09 we celebrate yifei birthday at gurney after planning... is wednesday that day... our class until 6.30 pm... and we promise...must reach gurney...sen q...7.30pm chun chun... the ppl who late need to treat all ppl eat... i am so worry about that... i try my best to make it fast...and finally.... haha...she late...not me...not alicia... haha...is she...yifei... she need to paid all ... wahahaha.... but...we got the happy moment...

guan come to join us ..when we were eating...

we happy cause...we are NOT THE LATE ONE...hahahaha

she sad...because of the ordes list too long...she promise...she wont be late next time....

another mature pose...

a group photo..

char bor..yifei...bing chao...

another cutie pose...yifei..and that cha bor..(bing chao)

roti...alicia...and me...peace peace...

my food...gonna kill it..

a cutie pose...hehe

my retart face...damn funny man...